Monday, May 3, 2010

Is it a poor idea to lie to yourself?


My natural reaction would be NO but denial is a wonderful thing and procrastination goes hand-in-hand with it. Sometimes the reality of a situation can be too overwhelming that one needs to escape.

I particularly find denial useful when life seems too much to handle. Like when looming deadlines seem to take over my life and I lie to myself and say that I’ll do it tomorrow or after a nap. The procrastination which follows as a result of the lie seems to do more harm than good in the end - yet I never seem to play the movie out to the end and think of the stress it causes me.

With the recent passing of my dad, I find myself coping with the situation by saying that he is going to walk through the door any minute. So how healthy is it? I find it helps keep me sane even if it is only for 8 hours while I try to continue with life. Reality is harsh and a bitter pill to swallow.

A lie can transport you to a place where all is well and there is a dream of a happily ever after but a lie doesn’t stay hidden forever...all it does is give comfort in that moment. There is a saying ‘My shit sticks, but it’s warm’. This is how life can be described when I live a lie…it sucks but it is soothing…

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